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周六吃早餐时, 我跟敦敦聊起奶奶近期记忆力下降的问题. 我告诉敦敦，老人短期内记忆力急速下降可能是老年痴呆症的前兆。敦敦听罢沉默了一会，抬起头来对我说，对一个老年人来说，发呆并不一定是一个很坏的状态。相对爷爷奶奶那样的老人和我们小孩子来说，你们成年人的痛苦多些，因为你们知道的太多，头脑也太清楚了。一个孩子之所以会很快乐，正是因为他知道的不多. 同样道理, 对一个老年人来说，脑子太清晰了也许是弊多利少。

敦敦的话自有其道理，人的心境是自造的，知道得越多越苦恼，越少越轻松。不知道就不苦恼。老年人身体不好，生活中的负面事件多，加上老人的内心都很脆弱，大脑保持清晰的老人，负面的东西会在头脑中被清楚地放大。痛苦就加倍了。从这个意义上说, 敦敦找到了不幸中的 '万幸'.

敦敦很善于在一个表面不利的状况下寻找对其有利的因素。在他看来, 任何不幸事件的发生都不是世界的末日，无论何等恶劣的情况都有向好的方向转化的可能。考第二名, 他想到有改进的空间; 妈妈发火, 他觉出妈妈爱子心切; 小猫闯祸, 他看到猫儿顽皮可爱; 丢了玩具, 他望有机会买更好的.

孩子这种乐观的正面思维方式, 使他能透过乌云看到阳光, 在他未来漫长的人生道路上, 这种性格特质很珍贵也很难得。

Diary Of Digital:Chapter 2- A "Fool's" Paradise 5/26/07
it was so confuzing, she had great qualities and negative qualities
i loved her for the positive but hated her for the negative
i didn't think i loved her because she puts so much anger inside me by wut she does
but then i ignored the times when we get along great ,and we fell asleep together and didn't want to be awakend
so there i was trapped in the forgive or forget situation
i tried forgiving, but there's only so much sorry's a person could take
then i tried forgetting but that's damn near impossible with people,songs,t.v. shows, reminding you of them and what used to be
so i was caught in the middle,something like good and bad or heaven and hell,or maybe even right and wrong
so there i was deciding what it is i really want
and then i came to a solid conclusion!
I Do love Her, But I Have To Except the fact That WHITE GIRLS ARE TOTALLY DIFFERENT FROM BLACK GIRLS
that has to be it because i never had these problems before and all of this stuff is new lol.
i can't stand liars and hypocrits and people who are sometimes in denial.
and i think it has to do with not the race because i don't wanna seem like a racist
but as far as the love and feelings and stuff is totally different
and it is true A WHITE GIRL IS A BLACK MAN'S KRYPTONITE!
so i now i have to find away to change my thoughts and looks at life,so i can understand her better
so i don't shut her down everytime she has a problem that i think is stupid
i have to adjust to her way of thinking,
and that might take a while
i was raised in thinking that you either put up or shut up
You gotta always stand up for yourself or else people will walk on you
i was raised in thinking that if i can't get what i want then i have to take it with force
this love stuff is like woah!!
there was a time when i would of said fuck love it's all about the money lol
that would have been me about 5 years ago.
but i grew smarter,stronger,wiser and became an intellectual
so when i'm asked the question of steven do you still love her?
and i look at them and take a long pause and then quietly with my head held high and bass in my voice with no regret
i say yes,yea i do!!
i alway get mixed answers,whether it's her friends saying "that's so cute" or "you to were ment for eachother", and the famous answer from most of them,"So why arent you with her?".
i never know how to answer that one....
but then there is the average other girls i associate myslef with that say those racist,stupid things like "why do you love her if she treats you that way","it's good ya'll ain't together nomore",or the one most of them say is "You don't need her to be happy".
Ya Know That Might be true but i think i want her around and to be happy
i don't think that's to much to ask.
is there a such thing as a perfect relationship?
And If There was would i want it?
is this partly what love is all about?
Here i am taking on everyones problems and not even trying to fix my own.
so where does that leave me, am i
where i need to be?
am i happy right now without her?
Or am i just living a fool's paradise?
i really don't know
but then again i am the only person who would know......

to think it all started in the back of my english class,i put my arm on her shoulder,her first words that started everything was "hold on,my hair is in the way" (i remember it like it was yesterday)